It feels as though I have been selectively reading books that target and attack my own issues. The last thing I need is some over dramatic romance novel egging my insecurities on. Although I enjoy reading, lately it seems that I would rather be lost on the pages of the books I read instead than among the minutes of the life I lead.
If it's not reading, it is writing. After weeks and weeks of writing my newest short story is nearly finished. I am not sure if it would be considered "short"considering that after revisions and editing it should stand at a steady 65 pages...
65... I've come a long way since my days of 30 page long short stories. I'm proud of myself.
However, my sleep, social life and eating habits have all been obliterated because of this. And now I'm keeping this blog... I swear if I associate my life with more words and more keyboards I will have letter babies...
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
All nighter~
They hurt... I swear they do.
You slept nothing, or close to nothing, and then you are expected to function in society. Can someone explain to me how that works? Because I seriously see no way of it ever working out for me, even if I pull them so darn often.
Civilization was not made to stay up all through the night, no matter what anybody says about that. I wish my brain could just shut itself in parts, while one side sleeps the other stays awake and so on. But then I wouldn't be human, I would be a dolphin.
I was working on something though, maybe I'll post it here later when I am finished editing this piece of work. However don't expect it to be good my imaginary virtual readers.
You slept nothing, or close to nothing, and then you are expected to function in society. Can someone explain to me how that works? Because I seriously see no way of it ever working out for me, even if I pull them so darn often.
Civilization was not made to stay up all through the night, no matter what anybody says about that. I wish my brain could just shut itself in parts, while one side sleeps the other stays awake and so on. But then I wouldn't be human, I would be a dolphin.
I was working on something though, maybe I'll post it here later when I am finished editing this piece of work. However don't expect it to be good my imaginary virtual readers.
Rantings in the Night on Resident Evil.
I've posted a lot here, although I just got this thing going.
I felt the urge to write here a lot today as I went through my day.
I was playing Resident Evil: Code Veronica X today when I decided I should write about it.
For those who don't know, RE: Code Veronica was made into two different games, Code Veronica; from Chris' perspective and Code Veronica X from Claire's.
Anyways, I was playing it today, complaining and whining about the old graphics, how terrible the controls were, how not-smooth the movements were, and inconvenient the item management was, when my younger sibling asked me why was I playing it if I hated it so much?
To my surprise the answer was immediate and I didn't even hesitate. The reply was simple: "Because the story line and atmosphere is better than any of the newer ones."
This brought me to think about the newer games. Why was this old version for the dear old Play Station 2 so much better in terms of story compared to Resident Evil 4 and Resident Evil 5?
While Resident Evil: Code Veronica X is very much like Resident Evil 2 the two newer versions of this franchise are way different from the past. Yes, they have better graphics, better item management, better controls and so on, but the story is lacking. Resident Evil went from a horror/terror game to an action game. I mean I can practically play Resident Evil 5 with no volume and still know when I'm going to be attacked. However in Resident Evil 2 and Code Veronica X I had to have the game at a reasonable volume in order to ensure I wouldn't be mutilated from behind. I thought forward to Resident Evil 4 and realized the same was to be said about this one, the atmosphere was eerie, that's for sure, but they incorporated this "theme" music to when an enemy was nearby, thereby killing the suspense. Whenever there was an enemy in the vicinity this music would play in the background and would not shut up until the last threat was eliminated. However in the old style RE you would hear this "aaaah....aaaah" indicative of Bio Organic Weapons nearby and then nothing, not even a small background sound or anything.
If any of you have played the old games you probably also noticed the random windows breaking, doors opening and closing and the ever present footsteps around you. While it is true that in the newer versions the environment doesn't lend itself to that, there are endless ways to make similar things happen. The sound of breaking glass could happen anywhere, or things being dropped. RE 5 did try to make amends with the Gold Edition in which you have two new mini games to play, one of them is clearly very Raccoon City-ish. "Lost in Nightmares" is a mini game with Chris and Jill in Spencer's mansion. This is very much like the old style RE. It's in a mansion, the soundtrack is vaguely different, but extremely similar to RE 1's soundtrack, we have a classical puzzle and the always present need to "find" something. This also happens in RE 4 but it's completely forgotten in RE 5, where the things you need to find are usually dropped by strong enemies and such. The entire feel of survival is lost, it's not a question if you will get out alive anymore, it's a question of how many bullets will it take you. In the older versions your enemies rarely dropped anything, and ammunition was sparse. In the new one I find myself carrying too much ammunition at times and having no space for herbs. Oh! This is another thing that changed! Now we can shop! We can collect money and buy stuff from the old creepy man in RE 4 and the menu in RE 5!
This was NOT possible in the older versions! And the game turned into a run-of-the-mill survival game! Instead of a suspense filled horror game in which you spent much of your time running away from enemies.
In the newer versions you're attacked by hordes, and hordes of B.O.W's, and you find yourself able to kill them all. While in the old ones if you saw that amount coming at you, you made the fastest strategy to get out of there alive as soon as possible...
Gosh I miss those times. I read that Capcon was working on RE 6, all I can hope for is that it will somehow to the beauty of the old Resident Evil games instead of following the new trend. After all, this was an old style game fit for those with a need for a brain teaser as well as a bloody massacre. If Resident Evil game players wanted to play an action game, they would play Halo or Call of Duty. Wouldn't they?
I felt the urge to write here a lot today as I went through my day.
I was playing Resident Evil: Code Veronica X today when I decided I should write about it.
For those who don't know, RE: Code Veronica was made into two different games, Code Veronica; from Chris' perspective and Code Veronica X from Claire's.
Anyways, I was playing it today, complaining and whining about the old graphics, how terrible the controls were, how not-smooth the movements were, and inconvenient the item management was, when my younger sibling asked me why was I playing it if I hated it so much?
To my surprise the answer was immediate and I didn't even hesitate. The reply was simple: "Because the story line and atmosphere is better than any of the newer ones."
This brought me to think about the newer games. Why was this old version for the dear old Play Station 2 so much better in terms of story compared to Resident Evil 4 and Resident Evil 5?
While Resident Evil: Code Veronica X is very much like Resident Evil 2 the two newer versions of this franchise are way different from the past. Yes, they have better graphics, better item management, better controls and so on, but the story is lacking. Resident Evil went from a horror/terror game to an action game. I mean I can practically play Resident Evil 5 with no volume and still know when I'm going to be attacked. However in Resident Evil 2 and Code Veronica X I had to have the game at a reasonable volume in order to ensure I wouldn't be mutilated from behind. I thought forward to Resident Evil 4 and realized the same was to be said about this one, the atmosphere was eerie, that's for sure, but they incorporated this "theme" music to when an enemy was nearby, thereby killing the suspense. Whenever there was an enemy in the vicinity this music would play in the background and would not shut up until the last threat was eliminated. However in the old style RE you would hear this "aaaah....aaaah" indicative of Bio Organic Weapons nearby and then nothing, not even a small background sound or anything.
If any of you have played the old games you probably also noticed the random windows breaking, doors opening and closing and the ever present footsteps around you. While it is true that in the newer versions the environment doesn't lend itself to that, there are endless ways to make similar things happen. The sound of breaking glass could happen anywhere, or things being dropped. RE 5 did try to make amends with the Gold Edition in which you have two new mini games to play, one of them is clearly very Raccoon City-ish. "Lost in Nightmares" is a mini game with Chris and Jill in Spencer's mansion. This is very much like the old style RE. It's in a mansion, the soundtrack is vaguely different, but extremely similar to RE 1's soundtrack, we have a classical puzzle and the always present need to "find" something. This also happens in RE 4 but it's completely forgotten in RE 5, where the things you need to find are usually dropped by strong enemies and such. The entire feel of survival is lost, it's not a question if you will get out alive anymore, it's a question of how many bullets will it take you. In the older versions your enemies rarely dropped anything, and ammunition was sparse. In the new one I find myself carrying too much ammunition at times and having no space for herbs. Oh! This is another thing that changed! Now we can shop! We can collect money and buy stuff from the old creepy man in RE 4 and the menu in RE 5!
This was NOT possible in the older versions! And the game turned into a run-of-the-mill survival game! Instead of a suspense filled horror game in which you spent much of your time running away from enemies.
In the newer versions you're attacked by hordes, and hordes of B.O.W's, and you find yourself able to kill them all. While in the old ones if you saw that amount coming at you, you made the fastest strategy to get out of there alive as soon as possible...
Gosh I miss those times. I read that Capcon was working on RE 6, all I can hope for is that it will somehow to the beauty of the old Resident Evil games instead of following the new trend. After all, this was an old style game fit for those with a need for a brain teaser as well as a bloody massacre. If Resident Evil game players wanted to play an action game, they would play Halo or Call of Duty. Wouldn't they?
Monday, March 21, 2011
Sleeping Habits.
I need to fix those. My sleeping habits have died, extremely so. I don't even sleep enough to keep me going through the day and when I do, I have nothing of my day left.
Well, last night I was writing here, but regardless I have spent too much time playing video games and writing useless stuff on random pieces of paper.
Anyone have that problem?
You're playing an amazing video game and the time just flies away and next thing you know it's past three in the morning, or worse, it's already day break.
I'm too lazy and cheap to buy the newest game out, and since I like beating all my games in every level imaginable I spend a lot of time playing them to begin with.
I like to read too, so I spend a lot of time doing that as well, people don't usually understand the beauty of sitting down with a good book (even if you end up reading some smut novel) and just pass time imagining life as one of them. Living inside a book seems a lot easier than real life, regardless of how crappy the book is there's always a passable ending, unless of course you're reading one of those memoirs in which the main character dies, or it's told from the perspective of an already dead character.
I just finished reading "Thirteen Reasons Why" and I have to admit that while the book was interesting and captivating, I did not want to live inside of it. I would rather be the dead character than those she left behind. I guess there is an ugliness in being left behind. I've experienced that, and the book resonated within me. It left me to wonder what role I had in the death of those around me, or what role I played in their life. Books meant for teens don't usually get to me, but this one left me wondering.
It also made me think what would our society be like if instead of sparkling vampires, movies were based on books with some meaning behind them? I do admit this book might be a little too much for a movie that targets teenagers, but still, maybe our teens would think twice before doing the things they do. Or maybe not. Who knows right?
More than video games, books take away my sleep. I hate putting a good book down so I always end up staying awake until far too late reading these things.
But it makes me who I am, and maybe my personality would be way different if I got sufficient sleep. Who knows?
Well, last night I was writing here, but regardless I have spent too much time playing video games and writing useless stuff on random pieces of paper.
Anyone have that problem?
You're playing an amazing video game and the time just flies away and next thing you know it's past three in the morning, or worse, it's already day break.
I'm too lazy and cheap to buy the newest game out, and since I like beating all my games in every level imaginable I spend a lot of time playing them to begin with.
I like to read too, so I spend a lot of time doing that as well, people don't usually understand the beauty of sitting down with a good book (even if you end up reading some smut novel) and just pass time imagining life as one of them. Living inside a book seems a lot easier than real life, regardless of how crappy the book is there's always a passable ending, unless of course you're reading one of those memoirs in which the main character dies, or it's told from the perspective of an already dead character.
I just finished reading "Thirteen Reasons Why" and I have to admit that while the book was interesting and captivating, I did not want to live inside of it. I would rather be the dead character than those she left behind. I guess there is an ugliness in being left behind. I've experienced that, and the book resonated within me. It left me to wonder what role I had in the death of those around me, or what role I played in their life. Books meant for teens don't usually get to me, but this one left me wondering.
It also made me think what would our society be like if instead of sparkling vampires, movies were based on books with some meaning behind them? I do admit this book might be a little too much for a movie that targets teenagers, but still, maybe our teens would think twice before doing the things they do. Or maybe not. Who knows right?
More than video games, books take away my sleep. I hate putting a good book down so I always end up staying awake until far too late reading these things.
But it makes me who I am, and maybe my personality would be way different if I got sufficient sleep. Who knows?
Not so sure...
So I decided to create this blog, although I'm not quite sure why...
I assume I'll spend most of my time writing extremely random things in here, and since I don't expect anyone to read it I think I can let my rantings go here too, like a very public diary.
Anyways.
I suppose that anyone reading this would like to know a bit more about me than my "About me" section entails, however I am aware of the amount of perverts prowling on the internet so I won't give away too much...
Name: Well, can we just call me Axelle? It's such a pretty name, is it not?
Age: Wouldn't it be nice if I told you? I'm old enough but not old enough.
Favorite brand: Clothes? Well I love any sort of cute clothes I'm not picky. Accessories? I like anything cute once again, so I usually shop in artisan shops. Instruments? Yamaha for drums, Fender for guitar, and Gibson for Bass. Perfume? DKNY for sure.
Favorite food: Hmmm Italian or Japanese, yet again I will eat just about anything as long as it's something tasty.
Favorite artist: Singers vary through the weeks and months, but the only one I keep close is Travis Barker from Blink 182.
Favorite band: I have a few, but I get my musical inspiration from Blink 182, ViViD, t.A.T.u and L'arc~en~ciel.
Favorite smoke: Malboro reds please? But if I have no other choice Malboro 27 works too.
Hobbies: Drumming, writing, drawing, studying and reading. I used to party but those days are over. I'm a dull person, I know.
Snack: Water, soda, Pellegrino... Some organic thing or another... I don't usually eat much to be honest.
Sport: Well, now that's a funny question. I hate sweating, but I love surfing, so swimming is how I keep in shape. Although I am so out of shape at the moment it's embarrassing. Thank the Gods for a fast metabolism.
Love interest: I'm straight, if that's what people mean, but I am not in love at the moment.
Pet: I used to have an extremely large ball python until I had to sell him because he got too big and long.
Did I miss something? Anything else people would like to know about me before reading my shenanigans? Well, if there are questions by the unlucky reader, please feel free to ask, I will do my best to answer them.
This should be all for tonight!
I will write something slightly more interesting in the days to come... I hope. (?)
I assume I'll spend most of my time writing extremely random things in here, and since I don't expect anyone to read it I think I can let my rantings go here too, like a very public diary.
Anyways.
I suppose that anyone reading this would like to know a bit more about me than my "About me" section entails, however I am aware of the amount of perverts prowling on the internet so I won't give away too much...
Name: Well, can we just call me Axelle? It's such a pretty name, is it not?
Age: Wouldn't it be nice if I told you? I'm old enough but not old enough.
Favorite brand: Clothes? Well I love any sort of cute clothes I'm not picky. Accessories? I like anything cute once again, so I usually shop in artisan shops. Instruments? Yamaha for drums, Fender for guitar, and Gibson for Bass. Perfume? DKNY for sure.
Favorite food: Hmmm Italian or Japanese, yet again I will eat just about anything as long as it's something tasty.
Favorite artist: Singers vary through the weeks and months, but the only one I keep close is Travis Barker from Blink 182.
Favorite band: I have a few, but I get my musical inspiration from Blink 182, ViViD, t.A.T.u and L'arc~en~ciel.
Favorite smoke: Malboro reds please? But if I have no other choice Malboro 27 works too.
Hobbies: Drumming, writing, drawing, studying and reading. I used to party but those days are over. I'm a dull person, I know.
Snack: Water, soda, Pellegrino... Some organic thing or another... I don't usually eat much to be honest.
Sport: Well, now that's a funny question. I hate sweating, but I love surfing, so swimming is how I keep in shape. Although I am so out of shape at the moment it's embarrassing. Thank the Gods for a fast metabolism.
Love interest: I'm straight, if that's what people mean, but I am not in love at the moment.
Pet: I used to have an extremely large ball python until I had to sell him because he got too big and long.
Did I miss something? Anything else people would like to know about me before reading my shenanigans? Well, if there are questions by the unlucky reader, please feel free to ask, I will do my best to answer them.
This should be all for tonight!
I will write something slightly more interesting in the days to come... I hope. (?)
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